Reflections of 2013-year of changes, travels and new experiences.

 This year has been one of the most challenging years in my life. I have been tested in different areas. I  have had new experiences and travels,ones  that  I would have never thought possible. I have pushed myself emotionally and physically and I have been crushed at times with the sheer weight of dealing with all the different changes . I have fallen on an a occasion or two, and than got up with out reared hands to a very Merciful Lord, who test to make us turn to him even more, to bow down to him even longer, to listen and obey to him even better.

 I am stronger in somethings and weaker in others. I am more aware of peoples sufferings and human nature. I am less judgmental. I am fragile. I am constant in need of Allahswt every....... single...... day. With his permission I am able to bow down to him five times a day and that is the greatest gift I could have ever achieve- his mercy and love to let me have Iman, faith in my heart and to keep turning to him.

I am shy of fourteen days from my baby Shuaib turning one year old and shy of 29 days of living in Malaysia for one year (minus all the travels back home :)) . I left on this journey determined and exhausted. Leaving some really precious gems of friends, all that was familiar in my home built up over fifteen years in Perth to Malacca, Malaysia, a small city town about two hours drive from kular lumper, the capital. I live five mins from the sea, my savoir when things became too much or when I needed freedom from the stares and sea of Asian faces. How I yearn to see a white face sometimes lol. That's what being around what's familiar does to you- everything different isn't seen as normal.How perception and mind set changes once we step out of our comfort zone.

 We are All different in so many ways yet the same. Regardless what color, nationality, religion you are , how many children you have or not or what country you live in, we are all human and feel hurt, sadness, happiness, desperation, broken, inspired,uplifted at different times in our lives.

 We walk different journeys yet we are on the same destination.

 We turn against people and can judge yet we are have faults and weakness to fix up.

 We are all trying or struggling with something- be it a relationship, upbringing of children, health, expenses, caring for someone, a death ,an illness, connection or disconnection.Some people are struggling through the day to just get a simple meal and education for their children. Somewhere on the Others side of the world , someone is struggling with their body image and what to wear for a event this weekend. It depends on very different circumstances what we are struggling for. The matter that is most I important is that struggling is with in our purpose of life . 

While we stand on this earth, or may I say walking, running, rushing, falling, hurrying, driving, talking or standing still, we must always remember our purpose of why we are here- for a Muslim it is important as keeping the eye on the prize, the purpose will be the key when it matters the most- that meeting on that day between you an Allahswt.

 Keep asking yourself now what matters the most to you now and than ask is it inline with your purpose? The purpose to worship a most merciful Lord who sees, hears the most inner most thoughts of the mind and feeling of the hearts. Keep turning to him in a world that's I'll try very hard to shut him out form your heart. Keep turning to Allahswt in a world that says fulfill your base desires, take the easy road, and put yourself first. Keep trying to maintain a beautiful connection with him, so you know that he will be pleases with all that you try to do. And most of all keep checking our intention of our actions and words- did it meet our purpose of life? Was it necessary and did it matter?

I hope that we can use our precious time while on this journey of life to be a better Muslim in character and deed. I hope we can bring better children into this earth that are compassion, caring, kind and helpful to others. I hope we can learn to see people's good and overlook their faults and weaknesses as much as we want ours to be overlook. And I hope most of all that you never a day goes by that you don't do something to keep your heart connected to the one that lets it beats over and over again, our most merciful, forgiving, overlooking, great Lord Allahswt