Life now

Its been a long time since I have sat down and wrote my personal reflections of my life. I cant believe how much I have changed since my last blog post. Iam so much more at peace. I have so much more inner understanding and acceptance, really accepted life as it comes, who I am and the precious people around me. I no longer take things so seriously. I no longer let what people say or do hurt me. I bur sh comments off more so now. I don't hold it in my heart and grow anxiety or get angry about why/when/how.

Iam me- a happy, positive soul. I worry much less. I learnt over the last few years to just take one day at a time. ONE DAY AT A TIME. Iam content and ever grateful everyday for the gift of life. I have one life, I better and will make the most of it, to benefit my own soul and touch the lives around me.

I did a Young Woman Leadership Program last year and I never would have thought how much it would change my life. That and my husband going away for 3 months start of last year. I learnt soo much about myself and the impact I can have on others. Iam blessed in so many ways. I appreciate the small things people do for me. I happy to help others when I can. I have routine, balance, purpose.

Purpose can only grow from understanding who we are and what we truly want. Iam soo determined to reach my goals. Iam like a snail slowing chipping away at my goals. Iam ever concern for my children and love ones....how will they take life. Will they be inspired or shoot down? Will they grow or block the world they are only just understanding? Will they take the path of practicing Islam or find another road? Who will they turn to in times of deep sadness, despair or hurt?

I cant control anything, the breath I take is not in my hands. I cant give guidance, I cant show the manual of life. Its different for each of us. I can give love. I can give understanding. I can give inspiration to believe and hope that there is always ease after hardship, ligth after darkness; there is always hope after hurt, there is always good advice after dilemma.

I suppose we have to be open to the experiences of life-to help mould one into a better person not one that gives up and follows the easy way or wrong way. Oh yah, did i say I don't worry as much anymore ;)